this holly is a hoodrat.

ok so in other news i came here to be soppy and whatever. as i can’t on my other blog as REAL...

Sun, 10 Feb 2013 18:42:35 +0000

ok so in other news i came here to be soppy and whatever. as i can’t on my other blog as REAL LIFE people are there wot.

so. er. i think i might love the boy?

i’m finally comfortable around him. as in 100%. as in can walk around naked and not feel (too) bad. sleeping in the same bed and not having sex is different but just as satisfying as having sex (most of the time). the sex is good. it’s fun and sometimes sloppy and awkwardish and it’s completely unselfish and it’s slow and long or quick before work and yeah. this feels grown up. he looks after me. me calls me nice names. he thinks i have nice lips. he’s quite honestly the more gorgeous thing i’ve ever seen. i still love dan, but only as a friend. for the first time since i met him i only want to be his friend. i literally don’t want even a little bit or anyone else. idk what long term looks like, but now, yeah. i think i might love him.

don’t feel in love if you know what i mean? don’t want to say i am and force the feeling, that would be bad. but. i think i love him. i er i love him guys. oh. so. wow.

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Sun, 10 Feb 2013 18:35:45 +0000

people are stupid.

Sun, 10 Feb 2013 18:33:54 +0000

people are stupid.

lalalaaaaaa freaking out about food again, woohoo. but no. I am going to have a good day. and eat...

Mon, 10 Dec 2012 10:54:03 +0000

lalalaaaaaa freaking out about food again, woohoo.

but no. I am going to have a good day. and eat like a normal person.

going to do some yoga (haven’t done any in months), get dressed properly, have some water, do a load of washing, have a cup of tea while sorting out notebooks, turn the heating on, brush hair, have lunch, send some emails, go to the bank, come back and do a little more yoga/pilates, plan an essay, have another cup of tea and a snack, put things into files, finish off to-do list, and come to terms I will probably always be at least a little in love with a boy who is not my boyfriend, then dinner and sleep.

feelings. a lot of them. good. bad. scary. guilty. exciting.

irony that the only person i feel can properly calm my anxiety right now, is also causing it to...

Tue, 20 Nov 2012 19:42:39 +0000

irony that the only person i feel can properly calm my anxiety right now, is also causing it to flare up again ahahaha oh my gosh what is wrong with me

i am so not a people person ugh ugh ugh what am i going to do how do i entertain people why am i this nervous oh wait a second i forgot of course i fall for my best friends and the people i could never stand to lose oh yeah i forgot about that teeny detail for a second well blow me down that’s a shocker

i am shaking and shivering and breathing far too heavily

i just don’t know what

erm

oops looks like i’m self harming tonight.

Tue, 20 Nov 2012 15:21:06 +0000

oops looks like i’m self harming tonight.

anyone got a shout about a place that uses vegan ink/will order in vegan ink around the leeds or...

Tue, 20 Nov 2012 12:56:56 +0000

anyone got a shout about a place that uses vegan ink/will order in vegan ink around the leeds or manchester area?

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Tue, 30 Oct 2012 17:31:43 +0000

i though i deleted this blog. kindof glad i didn’t. so there’s this guy (I KNOW how...

Mon, 29 Oct 2012 18:36:23 +0000

i though i deleted this blog.

kindof glad i didn’t.

so there’s this guy (I KNOW how cliche but yeah whatever) that i knew last year and we got on pretty well and we were just friends and i never fancied him at all and he was actually a little annoying but yeah. he had super long hair and was quite into metal.

and now he’s cut his hair and fuck me he is fucking beautiful especially when he’s got some stubble going on and i never noticed how wonderful his eyes were before they’re this sort of grey blue clear colour that i can’t describe and he’s got lovely cheekbones and a great bum and yeah i fancy him a lot.

so we were chatting a few weeks ago and it got intense (we were drunk) and he’s so messed up but so lovely and so honest and actually acts like a man not a boy which is niiice. and we made plans to see james bond and get stoned and yeah. great. fantastic. wonderful.

but then i basically pounce on him on a night out and we end up kissing and groping a lot and i was fine with it the morning after because i really like him and i think he might actually like me. but then we did go see james bond and smoke weed and i was mega awkward and i just wanted to hug him and kiss him and sleep over but i couldn’t because i am an idiot and uuugh.

now i think he sees me as more of a friend he kissed that one time (well also when i saw him afterwards as well) (ok so those two times) and i don’t know how to act in a relationship and i don’t even know if it is a relationship and i don’t know what i should do or say or yeah.

but i really like him. a lot.

which is awkward because no one apart from my best friend has seen my scars (well the ones on my legs at least) and only one other girl knows about them and that’s just going to be so awkward it’s probably going to make me want to self harm more. but at the same time if this doesn’t work out i’ve lost a friend made an idiot of myself and i will definately end up self harming.

i can’t see a winning situation here. clearly i am not designed for relationships.

hollyisahoodrat: from now on you can find me at http://the-peachy-vegan.tumblr.com/ for a blog...

Sun, 02 Sep 2012 02:41:05 +0100

hollyisahoodrat:

from now on you can find me at

http://the-peachy-vegan.tumblr.com/

for a blog similar to this but with more food, more vegan and cruelty free stuff, and less naked people.

you can also go direct (gasp!) to my very own .com site oh-grow-a-pear.com

this blog will be getting deleted by the end of the month, i hope to see lots of your pretty faces over on my new one so i can follow you again <3 <3 <3

from now on you can find me at http://the-peachy-vegan.tumblr.com/ for a blog similar to this but...

Sat, 01 Sep 2012 18:52:58 +0100

from now on you can find me at

http://the-peachy-vegan.tumblr.com/

for a blog similar to this but with more food, more vegan and cruelty free stuff, and less naked people.

you can also go direct (gasp!) to my very own .com site oh-grow-a-pear.com

this blog will be getting deleted by the end of the month, i hope to see lots of your pretty faces over on my new one so i can follow you again <3 <3 <3

grow-a-pear or the-peachy-vegan for my new food blog? thoughts?

Thu, 30 Aug 2012 21:47:10 +0100

grow-a-pear

the-peachy-vegan

for my new food blog? thoughts?

i am, as of now, in the process of quitting this blog. i’m setting up a food blog instead. i...

Thu, 30 Aug 2012 18:46:54 +0100

i am, as of now, in the process of quitting this blog.

i’m setting up a food blog instead. i waste so much of my time on here, and whole it is a brilliant place to think new things and discover new ideas, talk to people you never otherwise would’ve, it just takes up too much of my time and energy. so. i quit. by saturday all i’ll be posting will be the link to my new blog, which will have 2/3 posts of recipes a week, as well as a small smattering of personal stuff, as well as thoughts on how to live as cruelty free as possible with the lifestyle we’re all so comfortable with.

first impression - looks like fish food. smells like a dusty vintage shop. let’s hope it...

Wed, 29 Aug 2012 19:55:45 +0100

first impression - looks like fish food. smells like a dusty vintage shop.

let’s hope it tastes a bit better, eh?

nothing-rhymes-with-ianto: that-thing-from-that-place: 221cbake...

Wed, 29 Aug 2012 18:56:10 +0100

nothing-rhymes-with-ianto:

that-thing-from-that-place:

221cbakerstreet:

Secret cinema found beneath Paris.

In September 2004, French police discovered a hidden chamber in the catacombs under Paris. It contained a full-sized movie screen, projection equipment, a bar, a pressure cooker for making couscous, a professionally installed electricity system, and at least three phone lines. Movies ranged from 1950s noir classics to recent thrillers.

When the police returned three days later, the phone and power lines had been cut and there was a note on the floor: “Do not try to find us.” (via)

SECRET, MILDLY THREATENING UNDERGROUND COUSCOUS CINEMA

I WANNA GO

This is what I love about the Parisians, do not try to fuck with their film viewing

they will go rouge…

I think you mean rogue, but rouge certainly works as well.

waaaaah all i want to do is stay in and make a leeds fest 2010/2011 playlist and listen to it all...

Wed, 29 Aug 2012 18:21:00 +0100

waaaaah all i want to do is stay in and make a leeds fest 2010/2011 playlist and listen to it all night and get all nostalgic and shit.

seriously i only have the energy for either day or night activities. i need a nap. i think i’m getting old. i’m only 19, whhyyyyy.

theseasonofthewitch: Give me.

Wed, 29 Aug 2012 18:13:03 +0100

theseasonofthewitch:

Give me.

also i really cannot be bothered to go out tonight. ugh. i know i’ll enjoy myself once...

Wed, 29 Aug 2012 18:05:01 +0100

also i really cannot be bothered to go out tonight. ugh.

i know i’ll enjoy myself once i’m there, but i feel i have spent quite enough money for today. jeez i haven’t worked a single shift yet, need to conserve, yo.

then i remember one of my BEST FRIENDS is going to FREAKING CANADA for a WHOLE YEAR and when she gets back i’ll be going and omg it’s going to be so long before i see her again. blaaaah.

aaaaah best trip to manchester ever. FINALLY FOUND NUTRITIONAL YEAST, WITHOUT EVEN TRYING. BOOM. and...

Wed, 29 Aug 2012 17:21:04 +0100

aaaaah best trip to manchester ever.

FINALLY FOUND NUTRITIONAL YEAST, WITHOUT EVEN TRYING. BOOM.

and a t-shirt that says ‘grow a pair’ with a print of ovaries on omg it’s the best i’ll take a picture of it sometime. you all want one, i know you do.

You're a serious fucker, y'know that?

Wed, 29 Aug 2012 17:19:31 +0100

yep.